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Can someone save me from this curse? This curse of hate and pain...for that is all I feel...what is worse pray tell me the tears or the painful silence that comes afterwards.

Knowing that no one is there to comfort you when you need it most. I hate myself more than anything in this forsaken world. I hate what I am, I hate what I have done...had done...and will do...I just hate me. I cannot kill myself for I am scared of what awaits me on the other side...I just want it all to end so badly but I can't take my own life let alone another life in the process...

I want to feel the happiness that I give to others...why can't I feel the happiness? Why can't that happiness be real? No ones listening... No ones there...I am alone in a world unfair

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Konig
12:20 Aug 07 2011

loved your expressions...



cursed u think, cursed ur world/ hate and fear is what u feel/ happiness but far from real/ lucky that u live and may still find hope/ for we know how once we lived though dead/ and regret that we now dont!

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darknessfallsXD
16:37 Aug 19 2011

why thank you Konig very nice indeed :)

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In the silence that peace comes slowly but surely, for in this life there is truly more worth dieing for than living for. When you come to realize what life really is earlier than expected you wish you could take all that knowledge back wishing you never learned it in the first place....wisdom is not always everything for shit happens for a reason and sometimes those reasons are hard to explain. Guess well all have our own way of growing up.

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PriestessxKarei
10:51 Aug 07 2011

Yep, you need a hug. Nice piece though. I left a message for you at the Rate Profile area. I gave you a 10 btw.

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In this silence I fear I wish to never be alone in my own disgrace. When I sleep I wish to never wake up and see the light shining through the black curtains of my soul. Sometimes the darkness can be my happiness. It is where I don't have to hide who I am or what I want to be. Sometimes it is just better to scream and cry than to ever find peace from the pain...pain is the only way I know that I havent lost myself...it is the only sure thing that I have a heart left. Just give me my silence and darkness...I have changed too many times before now it is time to stop searching and stop trying to be what everyone expects me to be...it is just time to grow up...live for my own self and only me...